My husband says I hold grudges. And my mom agreed. I do, I guess. I would say it’s my biggest flaw. Well, I’m not perfect. I wish I was more like my mother. She is so forgiving. I’ve seen people do her wrong and be ugly to her, and she responds with love and kindness. I’ve thought so many times, how does she do it? And why can’t I be more like her? That’s her spiritual gift, and I guess mine was being creative. So, it’s a struggle for me sometimes to immediately respond with love and forgiveness. I know that’s what Jesus expects of me, but why is it so hard? I’m thankful Jesus does not hold grudges. I’m afraid he would be mad at me for something all the time. Last night we were studying from the book of John, and it’s the story where the scribes and Pharisees bring an adulterous woman before Jesus and remind Him of the law of Moses that she is to be stoned to death. Now, I’ve read and heard this story man times, but last night my eyes were opened to something I hadn’t realized before. Jesus stoops down and begins writing something in the ground. None of us know what it is that He wrote, but I dare say it was powerful enough to convict these scribes and Pharisees. And then this happens…
“…he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her. And again he stooped down, and wrote on the ground. And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst. When Jesus had lifted up himself, and saw none but the woman, he said unto her, Woman, where are those thine accusers? hath no man condemned thee? She said, No man, Lord. And Jesus said unto her, Neither do I condemn thee: go, and sin no more.”
~ John 8:7-11
I love that whatever it is that Jesus wrote was enough to change their hearts. I love that He makes all of us realize that none of us are without sin. I love that He doesn’t condemn us. And I love that He holds us accountable to not commit the same sins again. So this is what I strive for…to be more like Jesus.